Tears...

My dear one,

Today has been a day of tears for a couple of reasons, none of which I can really spell out in this letter. (I had a hard time keeping my composure in one particular lesson I taught this afternoon. I'm so weary of my professional and personal lives doing battle against one another.) The Lord is certainly testing my faith, and I feel like such a failure. What might have seemed like hope a few weeks ago, has once again returned to numb resignation. Will I ever learn? Is God holding you back from me because of my foolishness?

Well, instead of wallowing, I must go bake some cookies... a labor of love for all my students giving their performance juries tomorrow. If you were here, you would be my taste-tester.

Pray for me, as I pray for you, sweetheart...
All my love,
Me