Two of my friends made announcements within a day of each other (an engagement last night, a new relationship this morning, and no, they're not April Fool's Day jokes). "Well, there are two more friends to hide from my newsfeed," I mutter. I find it so hard not to be bitter. The girl who announced this morning that she's now dating is someone I considered to be a kindred spirit. Every time I start developing a friendship with someone, she finds her special man and I am left to sit alone wondering if it will ever be my turn. No, it's not like she intentionally would snub me, but it's only natural that other relationships take a back seat once a girl falls in love.
Oh yes, I know this attitude of mine, this pity party, is most unattractive. You definitely would not approve. But you see, that's why I need you in my life, to spur me on ... further up and further in.
I don't know how much longer I can pretend you exist. Hope deferred makes the heart sick.
Speaking of relationships, a third girl I know got married on Saturday, but is not changing her name. That is something that always bothers me. I can't imagine not changing my name! I would want more than anything to take your name as my own and wear it proudly, my dear one. My identity will be bound up with yours. But that can only be if you find me...
Waiting, for now...
Me
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