My silence is my self-defense

My dear one, 

Why is it that there are so many small-minded, vain, insolent, deceitful, untrustworthy people, even in the supposedly Christian community? So much of the time I feel so very alone. I find myself wondering if you, the one I haven't met yet, could ever truly be as wise, prudent, honest, ambitious, and selfless as I would imagine you to be... and as I would need you to be.

It started out as a feeling, 

Which then grew into a hope, 

Which then turned into a quiet thought, 

Which then turned into a quiet word...

~~~

I spoke to you in cautious tones, 

You answered me with no pretense; 

And still I feel I said too much--

My silence is my self-defense...

~~~

All you can do is try to know who your friends are 

As you head off to the war...

So thankful that Christ is my Shepherd, Rock, and Light. He is the same yesterday, today, and forever. He will never let go of my hand or turn His back on me. 

Loved with everlasting love, 

Led by grace that love to know; 

Spirit, breathing from above, 

Thou hast taught me it is so! 

Oh, this full and perfect peace! 

Oh, this transport all divine! 

In a love which cannot cease, 

I am His, and He is mine. 

~~~

O Love that wilt not let me go, 

I rest my weary soul in Thee; 

I give Thee back the life I owe, 

That in Thine ocean depths its flow 

May richer, fuller be.