My dear one,
I tend to have a "grass-is-greener" mentality regarding marriage, picturing life "on the other side of the fence" as being idyllic, when in reality it is fraught with difficulties I could never imagine. A few weeks ago I heard the stories behind two friends' respective engagements and weddings, and I realized that my slight jealousy regarding their situations was unfounded. Just the other day a colleague explained to me that the first 3 decades of her marriage were very tumultuous. I've known this lady for 14 years and never had any clue! And in the same conversation it was mentioned that another girl, only eight months married, is concerned about something in her marriage. Though that one was not mentioned, I think it might be a friend of mine! Then there's the friend whose brother murdered his wife... I would do well to be content in my singleness, no??? Yet I'm fairly sure that even if my prolonged singleness is for an entire lifetime, I will continue to cry out for that companionship which God designed His creation to need. Sometimes it's hard to keep from shaking my fist at God, complaining that He has withheld the fulfillment while still implanting the longings. But as I learn from the Book of Job - who am I to question God? Who am I to complain about His sovereign decrees? And who am I to think that I deserve marriage when I have an unbreakable union with Christ? Questions that need no answer, indeed...
Do you wrestle with these same thoughts? Perhaps, like me, you're striving to preach to your heart that which your mind already knows. Hard, though, isn't it?
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