My dear one,
One of the main purposes I have in writing these letters is to continue to direct my heart toward the pursuit of marriage. With each passing year, it becomes easier to abandon hope of finding my life partner, more tempting to stoically resign myself to this solo flight. Yet my heart’s desire has always been to be a godly wife and mother, and I believe this to be a God-given desire. I don’t want to have to give up that hope, because I genuinely fear what kind of woman I would become!
In my single status thus
far, God has been pushing me gently along a particular career path. I am so
thankful to be in a position where I can make a living and meet my financial
obligations and not be carrying financial debt. Everything I am
and have is a gracious gift from God. Truly, He sends daily manna, and I simply go out
to harvest it!
But I also cry out to the
Lord daily, pleading with Him that I would not become, or appear to others to
be, a career-driven “professional.” I sincerely hope that when you meet me, you
can see past my education, my career, the soon-to-be-acquired letters after my name, and know
that, deep-down, my heart longs to be a keeper at home. I can't wait to
know what meals you like, cook them for you, and enjoy them with you. I want to be a wise steward of our resources, and maintain a clean, cozy,
orderly, inviting home. I look forward to greeting you with a kiss when you come home from a busy day of work, and I want you to enjoy being at home (NOT eager
to escape some nagging
woman who lives there with you...). I anticipate being able to exercise hospitality with
you, opening our
home to others. We can host get-togethers for our friends and extend invitations for out-of-town family and friends to stay in our guest room.
Right now I might appear to be independent and self-sufficient, but I yearn to look to a man as the leader of the home. I will not apologize for my education, for hopefully it will make our relationship that much richer. I want my education, knowledge, and intelligence to complement you, but never show you up. I promise to never correct you in front of others. I want to do you good! I want to build you up personally and in the eyes of others. I never want to be guilty of putting you down or badmouthing you to others. And I want to encourage you in godliness as you spur me on to the same!
Right now I might appear to be independent and self-sufficient, but I yearn to look to a man as the leader of the home. I will not apologize for my education, for hopefully it will make our relationship that much richer. I want my education, knowledge, and intelligence to complement you, but never show you up. I promise to never correct you in front of others. I want to do you good! I want to build you up personally and in the eyes of others. I never want to be guilty of putting you down or badmouthing you to others. And I want to encourage you in godliness as you spur me on to the same!
Waiting,
Me
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