On dating experience, or rather the lack thereof

My dear one,

I have never dated anyone, so God has spared me from the heartbreak of dissolved romantic relationships. Some people view this to be a disadvantage for me. Perhaps when I meet you I may feel a little awkward about your interest in me. I'll have to get used to you gazing into my eyes (or rather, may I never get used to that - may it ever be a thrill!). It will be a new concept for me to admit my feelings for you and demonstrate my admiration of you. But I will not let this inexperience embarrass me, because surely you will feel all the more special when you realize that my heart has never belonged to another.

The few guys who have expressed any interest in me were not the type I'm looking for. The guy in college who asked me to accompany him to a theatrical production but whom I thought was absolutely creepy? He was later expelled for immoral behavior. The conductor who wanted me to celebrate with drinks after a performance with him? I politely refused. The Brazilian musician who offered to teach me jazz but hinted at the idea of "friends with benefits"? I ran in the opposite direction.

There have been several young men I have held in high esteem and felt that they were the kind of person I would consider. And I confess that it is quite easy to become bitter when I see other girls "catching" guys like that. I ask myself, If that plain ol' girl can land herself a husband, what on earth is my problem? I reassure myself with the thought that God is preserving my heart for you alone whom I have yet to meet.

I want to believe that when we find each other we will both know it and move forward intentionally towards marriage, and thus my "first love" will become my "till-death-do-us-part love." Will it be your first love too? I don't want to share you with the memory of a former flame. (Although, to be completely honest, I do think there is something tragically beautiful about a man finding a second love after the death of his beloved ... but I wouldn't wish that on anyone!)

Meanwhile, I am able to give my "undivided devotion to the Lord" (1 Corinthians 7:35). Hopefully you will continue to do the same!

Waiting for you...
Me