The journey

And in truth (as I now see) I had the wish to put off my journey as long as I could. Not for any peril or labour it might cost; but because I could see nothing in the whole world for me to do once it was accomplished. As long as this act lay before me, there was, as it were, some barrier between me and the dead desert which the rest of my life must be.

My dear one,

The above quote is from C. S. Lewis's Till We Have Faces. I have a certain affinity for Lewis's illustrations of Sehnsucht in the book. It's an interesting concept, and seems to me to be related to the untranslatable Portuguese saudade. One of my favorite Brazilian bossa novas is "Chega de Saudade" --

But I digress...

Anyway, this C. S. Lewis quote grabbed my attention this morning for another reason: it describes to a T my feelings regarding the doctoral "journey" I am on. Can you possibly understand the trepidation I felt in taking the step to pursue this degree? I have worried occasionally that it will drive you away from me. Sometimes it seems that when I have this degree behind me I will indeed have a "dead desert" ahead of me. But by God's grace these fears will not become the reality. He will bless me with many opportunities for ministry to others and edification for my own soul, until He brings you into my path. God will enable you to see me for who I truly am, I trust!

Until then, waiting,
Me